By Gina Newton
It drives me
crazy, the wondering. An event in my life. One where I know
how it turned out, but not why. And not if I was right. I
go back and forth, back and forth, back and forth.
It drives me crazy!
It doesn't really matter. I tell myself that. And I'm
right. It doesn't.
But still I wonder.
You see, one way, I was simply a foolish woman. The other
way, I was foolish and wrong. And there is no way to really
know which it is. It bothers me. A lot.
And satan just loves that! he is the author of confusion,
self-doubt, crazy. When this issue comes to mind, it gives
him great pleasure. And for a long time, I have been unable
to figure out how to stop it. Yesterday it came to me. I
can't! Only God can! But . . . here's the thing . . . I have
to let Him!
You see, unlike satan, God is a gentleman! I have asked
for clarity. He said "No". He said I don't need to know. He
said I can't be in control of everything. Or anything. He
said I have to trust Him. Or satan. The choice is mine. He
won't force me to have peace in this!
I can trust Him and trust that He alone knows the "why"
and "what if" and "rightness" of the situation. Even when
it's crazy! Or I can fall prey to satan's taunts and waste
precious time and energy wondering.
It's up to me.
You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on
because he trusts in You.
~~ Isaiah 26:3
ginasmusing.blogspot.com, October 3, 2017